everythings just happenin so fast

i have so many thoughts in my head right now, i dont even know where the fuck to start here...alright here it goes...

honestly fisrt things first, i really, really wonder who reads this thing i mean cmon now im a lameass...well maybe not HAHA

so um, ok well i was just looking at the past, and i mean just thinking about all those amazing imes, growing up in cali, and just living such an amazing life, i meean i know alot of the people there put me through ALOT of shit, but alot have also genuinely cared about me, and i have some of the GREATEST memories. i just cant believe how many people have changed, so many people, friends i was so close to...but for what? just a moment in time? and now i dont even know who they are anymore...

so weird man.

so my soul is just so happy right now...animal collective is so fucking amazing.

i cant compete, and im so sick of these types of things happening to me. here, ill explain...theres just this thing that always tends to happen with most boys, i feel like i have to compete against these girls that look like models and you know what im so fucking sick of it. there was this dude, i was REALLY diggin, i mean we fucking connected, him and i know both knew it, and what the fuck happens, uh he decides to date this fucking 16 yr old. you just HAVE to be kidding me...fucking UGH.

i mean i know when i find the right one, i will KNOW it, and for quite a VERY long time ... years i thought i found him, im still not sure, but i guess i just have to be patient and find out when i find out...know what im sayin?

i love nature, we came from this earth, the least we could do is treat it right, right? i just love taking in the beauty & the colors of everything..the trees, the sky, the ocean... i love it.