catch me im falling down,

this week has been fucking ridiculous, and i am s fed up with guys in general, i want to rip out my eyeballs. more than several have driven me so fucking crazy lately, its quite ridiculous. i just want to get the fuck out of here. im so sick of this spot of the world that i am constantly stuck on. i need a fucking vaaaccatttiiiiiiiiiioonnnn.

you can always take more than nothing

i wish i just wish so bad sometimes that i didnt have to go through this, wish that i wasnt born in the place period and time i was, so none of this would me happening. my mind is so sore, im always thinking too much about everything, and society and existence. its fucking ridiculous. i mean, we hurt and have pain, but why? what makes us actually feel a feeling? how exactly does a consciousness exist? my ricky is going through such a hard time right now, and he doesnt deserve absolutely anything hes been through lately, i dont know why people keep shitting on him, and there is nothing i can do except verbally try to help him. i mean, why is all this happening to HIM? why isnt happening to the person who is the asshole, or rich bitch? i am beginning to think karma doesnt exist. it makes sense why it wouldnt. i think we are just here. weve evolved into these shitty little organisms who are cold and selfish and mean and defensive. ITS SO FUCKING DEPRESSING. there is nothing i can do about the way the world is set up. who the fuck makes all the decisions and why the fuck do i have to go by all these "rules" that should never exist. why does that building have to be right there? shit,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,bckjsjabjba;fb;f;h';f

i know you know you should talk to me. but i dont know WHY YOU WONT. JUST FUCKING DO IT!