this is the politics of seeing you dance with him

These past few days have been so fucking insane.
im not sure where to begin. two nights ago i was in a grease fire by stupid mistake...took the ambulance to the ER and stayed in the hospital over night and had 2hand surgeries..haha the bad things just keep on coming onto me. OK SO! i came home from the hospital and two friends called me up...one saw my "story" in the newspaper, the other one saw my story on the internet and some lady that works with my room mate said she heard it in the tv!
so today i came home to find a "get well soon card" from a stranger that is currently in prison....
what the fuck?!
thats a bit creepy ...
i can sew these folks who put my shit on blast without asking me right?!
i need help with this one haha


im really stoned right now btw...i tend to babble on & on when im stoned.
lets spice things up a bit shall we?

FRIENDS<3:

my room mate jenny is one of the most amazing people in my life right now. i can trust her with anything and shes has helped me so much. weve never gotten in a fight and we tell eachother everything. we go everywhere together, shes pretty fucking awesome.

my sophia is so amazin! when we hang out its like SHIT! we just clique as such fucking tight ass friends. we both used to hang out in california together...she ended up moving to st.louis three months before i moved to missouri, we hung out and now we try to chill as often as we can. oh my god, i wish i could put her in my pocket so we could go everywhere together :)

lee chi pants is my companion. were together all during the day & go on adventures because we got fired on the same day haha. we always get along, shes for good :)

graham is secretely in love with me, i know this because he told me once when he was HELLA wasted...i know he doesnt remember though haha...he always comes over to make me feel better...hes really amazing, i know he alot on his shoulders and we try to help ecahother out as much as possible. oh, grahamcraker!


my crazy sister of course, not so much one of my best friends right now, but were getting along. honestly, im starting to see her true colors...and sometimes i dont like it. but i love her and i always will..i know were sticking together no matter what.


so, ive got a problem...

a
shopping
additction.

funny thing is i have no money! ive maxed out credit cards and oh god. it just aint good.


so anyway, theres this chic that digs me & im pretty sure i dig her. im just not too sure if shes my type i guess? i mean not that i have much of a type...i just think i need somebody alittle more exciting. shes beautiful and sweet but idk well see how this goes...

i mean honestly right now, i want a man. a funloving, goofy like me cute, tall and simple guy....(that dresses nice haha!) thats all i ask for, why is it so hard for me to find?? haha maybe im too picky...or maybe THE GUYS ARE TOO PICKY? what am i talking about, im fucking awesome....so that makes me pick right? haha

the beginning

and so it begins...

im so tired of explaining this story over & over again, but heres the short version:

i was adopted at birth by my loving and crazy mexican family, not even knowing that my whole entire life i had a birth sister living on the other side of the country, looking to find me. March of 2007, my birth sister rachel found me on myspace & we met 4 months later on a road trip she took to my beautiful hometown California. After i turned 18 i moved all the way to Missouri (misery) to live with her. She ended up screwing me over by letting a stupid guy named timmy take over her life and we couldnt even stand being in the same room with eachother, because most likely wed end up in a bitchfight. Two months ago, she moved to Montana to live with our birth dad (who ive never met) and now im here in missouri with my amazing room mate jenny. i hang out with a bunch of people i that have the greatest times with and i LOVE being out here on my own without my fucking crazy mom.

ANYWAY, ive been through alot here and have been learning about new awesome crazy shit everyday. I just lost my job three days ago and right now im pretty screwed financially. im still crazy about my exboyfriend and cant seem to get over him, even though hes already got a new girlfriend.
im trying to find some more awesome friends around here....i love the ones i have but all of them are alot older than me and blah blah .